The Road to Rollergirl How I Stopped Being a Roller Wannabe and Started Being a Rollergirl

Drama and James Bond Super-Spy Tactics

In case you aren't following my Twitter (which you should be, I'd love to be your Twitter bff), the league I am trying out for just announced their tryout dates. Remember how I was all "boy I hope it's not when I'm out of town on a business trip, that would really suck?"

Yeah.

I was all Kubler-Ross 5 stages of grief about it.

Denial. Seriously, my first response was to refresh the page about 10 times and check to make sure this wasn't info about last year's tryouts. Nothin' doin'.

Anger. I said the f-word. A LOT. My sweet partner came up to give me a hug, and I was so electric with anger, I just had to be like please don't touch me, I'm very very angry. I was positively incandescent. Radioactive.

Bargaining. I have to say I am not entirely out of the phase, because there's some horsetrading going on to see if I can change flights, move myself around on the roster for the presentation, or something like that. Every solution involves multiple plane tickets (did I mention that I'm poor and terrified of flying). Every solution involves some major James Bond type tactics and sliding into the airport with minutes to spare.

Depression. I was a zombie during my carpool to practice yesterday. I probably said five words together the whole time. I try not to burden people with my shit, but it was the one thing on my mind, so I didn't say much. I just skated like I was on fire.

Acceptance. No matter what, I've got to deal with this. No use moping over this, I've just got to solve it. I don't care what it takes - I've overcome a lot of adversity in my life, and I have no reason to believe that this will be any different.

So that's where I am now. I have to say that this came right on the heels of the only discouraging practice that I have ever had (if you are a coach, can I just tell you that making fun of people isn't a great motivator for everyone? some people really shine with encouragement and critiquing and get frustrated when you criticize and make fun of them. okay?) I've been pouring crazy amounts of time and money into this, and I'm not going to let a couple of little speed bumps get in my way!

And anyway, what's a blog without a little drama? Stay tuned as the date approaches and see how I get around this. I'll be just as surprised as you are...